Everything still the same for me
Not much change
Although i felt peace a bit recently
But the root problem still there
I am very upset with my family
I hate it
I dislike it
You delete my childhood
You give me bad impact
The impact that can destroy my whole life
I didn't have childhood
What i have just with the blame and hate
I build my things with myself
I didn't have any assist
Although sometimes i really need it
Who will be my side when i need it
Father?
This word actually become so fresh for me, in my life almost no more this word
Mother?
Sometime will but mostly can't...always with her own style, like to put the emotional on others
Sister?
Already have their own family, have to take care her family so don't disturbing her anymore
Brother?
Live with his own world, do what he prefer only
Haha...
So...
Who else there?
No more right?
Am i feel alone?
That feel always come to me
Actually i am very jealous with others
They have care and concern from their family
I want it, that why i force myself to take over all responsible
I don't want my family hancur
But at the end, what i get?
I felt very very far from my beloved one
I sad,
I unhappy
I moody,
I worry,
I scare,
I afraid,
This all feel...i faced it, i overcome it with myself
Financial?
I had officially cut the pocket money from family
Just because a blame
Then how i effort it?
Haha...working like a dog with people loh
You have to survive so you have no choice
Whether you like it or not
My look very tough?
Yaya...
What to do, previously, don't want family worry
But now become a compulsory
I worry my internship
I got the good offer from Selangor
I choose not to go
Why?? Why?? Why??
Because a word...FAMILY
I can't put down, i worry them
Then
Who care?
I really think wanna leave here as far as i can
And don't want come back anymore
No more...
I hate it...
