Who am i ???

Actually here is my 'best listener'
Y??
Bcoz i always choose to post all those my internal things on here...
at here nobody will argue with me.
at here nobody will scold me
at here nobody will critic on me
at here i free to said

I got a lot and a lot unhappy things in my mind.
I different with everyone; since in small age, i get to know everything.
Become a responsibility guy no matter where i am.
And here i started my vexation life.
I stand in ppl view 1st then after me, mean i always keep the best things to others 1st then only me.
But, this made a lot of troublesome to myself.
I am very unhappy bt i decide to quiet, keep all those unhappy in my own 'room'.
And i rarely let ppl get into my 'room'.

I really tired and tired...
i need relax...
my mind also need it,
my physical also need it.
Bt, the situation not allow me to do so.
I very jealous my sister and brother!
They could do nothing except enjoy into their life.
They could do as dunno nothing and not concern for everything.
Am i think too much or maybe i done too much so i also expect they could do what i have done???
Why? That is because i pity on my mum, she work hard for the family although is a women! So, as son i have to handle all the burden...but why the others son and daughter may do like nothing?
I should do so??

Who know i am tiring also since this few month??
I trying to find some way to release all those responsible ans all those burden things!
I want leave everything...
What way could make me feel peace and harmony??
I need cold down...i afraid i am going to do stupid thing to fulfill my minded request!
Who am i right now???
I seem like lost myself...i got too many to carry
Really too much for me!!!

I want leave...
I want alone...

圆满的结局

很多人会联想起
圆满的结局肯定是好的一个结局
话就并不是那么说了
当初，
我也是那么样的想法
我以为一切可以圆满告一段落了
算是一个美满的结局
可是，
一切都是想得美
事实还是归回事实
总是要清醒的

我以为没事了
可是，
在他人的身上是未必的
当我
想放下的时候
却怎么放也放不下
当我
不想放的时候
却感觉好像被放下

要我帮我心底的话全说
的确有点难度
我真的不能
或许自己考虑太多吧
把最好的都留给别人

其实，
我的心情很矛盾
不开心...
却不可以发牢骚
不愉快...
却不可以发泄

一切都像在循环
全部东西都在一个圈圈里
一直一直的在绕圈圈
现在的我就像绕回以前的圈圈
要绕到几时

可以说是自尊心强吧
我自认
我的一切大部分都是得自己
打拼、挑战过来的
并不是有任何的金山关照
要比较...
自己真的还是排在远远的后头

他很像我...
有种感觉就是
自己被取代了
都说了要比较的话
自己会是排在远远的
一切会是过度期吗？

我还是那句
没出卖过、没玩弄过感情
或许处事方面
大家各有一套

当，
“安全感”
这一句话的浮现
就有如
一大桶冷水倒了下来
原来...错了就是错了
改不掉的事实
我以为一切都完美
可是，
一整天后的还是那句
“安全感”
老实说很累
不过值不值得我应该没得去评吧
我的现在角色就仿佛小太监
老实的我很怕得罪太后
阴影...

一切说了也太迟了
老土的还是那句
顺其自然
不要太勉强
努力、尽力了就好
希望她也会幸福
我真的不想我的出现只会带来泪水以及伤痛

希望一切有
...圆满的结局...

=（ miss my supper

可怜的我。。。
心想好不容易放工了
可以去慰劳自己
也跟姐姐约好去吃宵夜了
一直想着要吃什么什么的打算

也顺路去兜了女友
回到家冲好凉
妈妈说不去了...有点累
我也不勉强她
女友，那方面
其实她有点累
我也不好意识开口
说要去吃了
以为能忍...不吃
其实，是不能的

我要吃的东西
就得吃到
很可怜...有种酱的怪癖
吃的东西不但要好吃
也得要爽...满足感

一切妥协
心想妈妈煮剩的菜肴可以回家吃
怎知...全部收了
就骑着摩托出去找吃
要吃的...完了
不要的...就一大堆
兜了三次
最后，
灰心的回家了
我的supper飞走了
可怜....