2010年即将‘放工’了...
接替的会是2011年了！
时间过得很快
一不小心，时间还真的走到不知不觉
回顾今年里的点点滴滴吧
在感情，亲情，学业，事业...也有很大的波动
感情篇：
人家说嘛
男生要不是为钱烦就为女人烦
哈哈...全中
感情方面我都很重视
都非常在乎
所以自己才会很辛劳
这年来都很挑战
不过一切应该都安定了
也很谢谢她给予的忍让以及包容
但愿一切都顺顺如往常
亲情篇：
这一部分也是我生命最重要的
一路来自己都不会诉说出心里的不满
所以就造成很多很多的埋怨
没错，在家的责任很重
不过现在一切我都选择放轻来看
不想太过于重视学习放下
学业篇：
学业一直以来我都不会很重视
因为我知道我要的是什么
不过自己也为学业定下一个目标
很遗憾还达不到
会继续努力的
事业篇：
很快的
大学生涯嘉奖接近尾声了
表示说事业的阶段要开始了
我现在也处于半工读
也开始物色我的未来事业的领域
很挑战，很矛盾
都不知道要选择哪条路
路是人走的...不过，
走错路可能就没得回头
一切一切我都适用于自己的经验以及经历
来跨越我的问题以及挑战
这一年来嫌少用于信心来跨越一切
经验以及经历不是不行
只是不够完整
我需要信仰、信心来协助
以我的经验来跨越问题的确很吃力
分分钟会失手跌倒
很庆幸的是...都有被守护着
所以一路战斗都还是过关
好啦！不好的就一切的让它随风而去
现在要开始迎接新的到来
一切一切要好好的策划了
新年快乐
一家平安
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
永远的错
回来家两天...就写贴写足两天
原本用一下子便可以到达我家了可是我却以沉重的脚步回家
其实，坚强的我逐渐被周遭的事务以及任务给打倒了
剩下的只有一个充满恐惧、埋怨、悲观、脆弱的我
“我不开心，要会说出来”
可是，行吗？
我要说给谁听？
亲情以及感情以往都是位于我生命的第一
现在不行了...真的不行了
信赖...很重要
我需要它来解除我的恐惧
同样的我再怎么努力
结果还不是那样
就是因为一次的错
演变成永远的错
都怪自己啦
以前在别人眼中是个烂泥
也是个花花的男生
所以，那时的大意就变成现在的大错
我不渴望什么
你问我，
有不开心吗
有话要说吗
其实，我很喜欢刚刚车上的谈话可是结局换来的却是个恐惧
我还能说什么
我真的欲望、渴望有个知音者
可以了解我
当我的听众
可是.....
包容不是那样的
因为你用错了
不好乱乱猜测然后乱乱用完包容心
我的一切已经被夺走
没有人会珍惜
到了没有才责怪
我反反复复的给予自己勇气再尝试在坚持
为什么...为什么...
还是那样的答案以及结局
我真的很怕很怕
感受到我的一切只有进没有出
我肯定会出事的
要是在那样下去
孤单的我...还真的怕寂寞
要是因为花心的理由
我会比较好过
因为“永远的错”
我会越来越静了
直到完全静的一天
好啦...不想在描述我的感觉了
就让永远的错继续错
要怎样想我、看我
都不重要
因为累了...是真的疲惫了！！！
原本用一下子便可以到达我家了可是我却以沉重的脚步回家
其实，坚强的我逐渐被周遭的事务以及任务给打倒了
剩下的只有一个充满恐惧、埋怨、悲观、脆弱的我
“我不开心，要会说出来”
可是，行吗？
我要说给谁听？
亲情以及感情以往都是位于我生命的第一
现在不行了...真的不行了
信赖...很重要
我需要它来解除我的恐惧
同样的我再怎么努力
结果还不是那样
就是因为一次的错
演变成永远的错
都怪自己啦
以前在别人眼中是个烂泥
也是个花花的男生
所以，那时的大意就变成现在的大错
我不渴望什么
你问我，
有不开心吗
有话要说吗
其实，我很喜欢刚刚车上的谈话可是结局换来的却是个恐惧
我还能说什么
我真的欲望、渴望有个知音者
可以了解我
当我的听众
可是.....
包容不是那样的
因为你用错了
不好乱乱猜测然后乱乱用完包容心
我的一切已经被夺走
没有人会珍惜
到了没有才责怪
我反反复复的给予自己勇气再尝试在坚持
为什么...为什么...
还是那样的答案以及结局
我真的很怕很怕
感受到我的一切只有进没有出
我肯定会出事的
要是在那样下去
孤单的我...还真的怕寂寞
要是因为花心的理由
我会比较好过
因为“永远的错”
我会越来越静了
直到完全静的一天
好啦...不想在描述我的感觉了
就让永远的错继续错
要怎样想我、看我
都不重要
因为累了...是真的疲惫了！！！
Saturday, December 11, 2010
I am alone
A long long time, i have not 'visit' to my space...but today although very tired due to drive back UUM and i choose to write down my feeling here!
Damn sad, dissapointed, speechless, tired...
This sem actually mean nothing to me! The worst feeling always with me!
Ya! I pass through my life with my experience without faith and it is ok but the feeling i get is everything mean nothing for me!
No one can let me share my stuff, my problems, my challenge...Got someone ask me that why not i ask help from my sibling to share my stuff or responsibility but the answer i know and i just keep it in my mind!
I have to learn and be tough in every single matter! I grown up without childhood! I can't ever remember the sweet memory in my childhood! In this world, who really don't care, concern or even spoon feed by others? Especially the childhood even though until now i still desire for love and care from family! But, i also know the answer since the reality had prove everything!
I hate to blame but it was came to me silently and now it was conquer my soul! Everything are out of my control!
Nowadays, i had change...i dislike my house, dislike my family! But, who care, who concern??? I need to release but what is the suitable way to release?? I have too much burden in my shoulder!
I want someone to advise, encourage me when i face something but the role has been change...i get to advise and encourage people! The dissapointed things is not only the people that we really care and really appreciate not going to listen on us but also saying i curse her! Really damn fuck this feeling! Many time decide not going to care on her but i lose...i willing to help when requested!
If i have someone can share with me example my sibling can help to share the family responsibilities, sure i will feel better! I doesn't mean to request anything from them because as my brother, he is too young to get pressure like me and i want he to be concentrate his study but sometime i really need a sister who really can help on me!
I request for help mean i really need you, that is my style! But when i ask your help, you trying to swift to other since the other are busy and blaming me use the temper on you! WTH...suddenly in mind, what for me if i got this kind of sibling??? You may easily throw out irresponsible word but in my situation, i have to take up all the coming responsibilities! I curse you?? If i really want you to be suffer in future, why i am going to worry and pray the best for you!!!
My childhood was break and damage because gamble...the evil of gamble was took away my respective father! Take everything that i have! I lose everything suddenly!
I need extract expenses then i have to earn for it! I have to scold like dog by others, discriminate by others, sunbathe is for a little money!
But, that make me strong and full of experience!
I have to back to my faith...if not!!!!! I will be alone and alone!
I hate the feeling...
Really no one in my around just like i am orphan!
Where is my love??
Where can i get my love??
Damn sad, dissapointed, speechless, tired...
This sem actually mean nothing to me! The worst feeling always with me!
Ya! I pass through my life with my experience without faith and it is ok but the feeling i get is everything mean nothing for me!
No one can let me share my stuff, my problems, my challenge...Got someone ask me that why not i ask help from my sibling to share my stuff or responsibility but the answer i know and i just keep it in my mind!
I have to learn and be tough in every single matter! I grown up without childhood! I can't ever remember the sweet memory in my childhood! In this world, who really don't care, concern or even spoon feed by others? Especially the childhood even though until now i still desire for love and care from family! But, i also know the answer since the reality had prove everything!
I hate to blame but it was came to me silently and now it was conquer my soul! Everything are out of my control!
Nowadays, i had change...i dislike my house, dislike my family! But, who care, who concern??? I need to release but what is the suitable way to release?? I have too much burden in my shoulder!
I want someone to advise, encourage me when i face something but the role has been change...i get to advise and encourage people! The dissapointed things is not only the people that we really care and really appreciate not going to listen on us but also saying i curse her! Really damn fuck this feeling! Many time decide not going to care on her but i lose...i willing to help when requested!
If i have someone can share with me example my sibling can help to share the family responsibilities, sure i will feel better! I doesn't mean to request anything from them because as my brother, he is too young to get pressure like me and i want he to be concentrate his study but sometime i really need a sister who really can help on me!
I request for help mean i really need you, that is my style! But when i ask your help, you trying to swift to other since the other are busy and blaming me use the temper on you! WTH...suddenly in mind, what for me if i got this kind of sibling??? You may easily throw out irresponsible word but in my situation, i have to take up all the coming responsibilities! I curse you?? If i really want you to be suffer in future, why i am going to worry and pray the best for you!!!
My childhood was break and damage because gamble...the evil of gamble was took away my respective father! Take everything that i have! I lose everything suddenly!
I need extract expenses then i have to earn for it! I have to scold like dog by others, discriminate by others, sunbathe is for a little money!
But, that make me strong and full of experience!
I have to back to my faith...if not!!!!! I will be alone and alone!
I hate the feeling...
Really no one in my around just like i am orphan!
Where is my love??
Where can i get my love??
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