a man

today i read the newspaper
found that;
a guy choose to suicide
according to the report...
that is because of the love matter

nothing special feel with the news
because that is part of the story in our society
but,
till i read something about the guy in facebook
and also what the people post in the facebook
i got different feeling

got people posting and said:
"a man should build up everything from zero
if the man failed, people will laughing on him"

although a guy tough than a girl
but sometime don't judge a book by his cover
a man/guy won't let you see his weakness till the last breath
they will make it perfect
they will try to fulfill
they will force to maximum
they will...really they will...
as long as they want

is it difficult to understand the thinking of a guy?
am i complicated??
i choose not to talk
pretend like nothing
that also i too care about others feeling
i really don't want people to worry me
i don't want my mum who tired for whole entire life is just for the family to worry
i knew my problem not suppose to let people know
so, i keep it just in my mind

a guy...what they want exactly??
what i want since i am a man
who going to build everything with my own hand
who going to choose whether become zero to hero or still in zero stage
the burden and expectation toward a man are as high as a tower
you couldn't escape
unless you face it
and you be stronger and stronger...

be a man